The Countdown Begins!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am sitting at my computer trying to anticipate what tomorrow will bring. There is excitement and fear all wrapped up inside of the confidence I have in Sophia and Dr. Buchin. I can hardly believe it that tomorrow is the day, 11:30 AM. HOLY COW! I have thought about having the surgery for the past two years, one surgeons office I called told me more about what my out of pocket expense would have been than she did about the what was covered. I decided that financially I could not do it. A friend of mine had surgery a year ago and I have watched the progress he has made and how much better he has become. This re-awakened my desire to have gastric bypass. I did my research for a while and made an appointment with Dr. Buchin in July. These past 10 weeks or so have been busy with presurgical appointments, clearances, tests etc. It seems like it took forever but here I sit, 12 hours until surgery.

Sitting here, with my bottle of water to stay hydrated, I am in shock. What did I sign up for? OMG am I ready for this? Do I really want to not be able to eat whatever on a holiday? Do I really want to skip the hot dogs at CitiField next season? Do I really want to have to watch everything I eat and count proteins? What about my ice cream and cake? These are the silly things that go through my mind. The answer to all of those questions is YES. I want to do these things because I want a healthier life. A healthier life where the looming threat of type 2 diabetes isn't hanging over my head each time I have a blood test. A healthier life where I may be able to kick my CPAP to the curb. A healthier life where walking more than a few blocks doesn't leave me with back pain and fatigue. A healthier life where I won't worry if I am over the weight limit on one of those chairs people bring to picnic. A healthier life where I can comfortably sit in a seat without worrying that my size causes a problem to the persons sittting next to me. Big changes are on the horizon. For me, change is scary stuff. Knowing that this is a decision that will affect me for the rest of my life had been overwhelming but now I am confident I have made the best decision for me, my future and most importantly my health.

This has been the biggest decision I have ever made and I am now moving towards a new path, a better, healthier path. I know this will be a lifelong journey but I am ready to GET MOVING!